Gay is not what we are, Gay is not who we are, Being Gay is just one simple part of us.: What do you do?????????

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Greetings Everyone!!!
I am starting this blog as a place for Gay men and women to come and read information about a variety of topics and issues. If you would like to be a guest author on my blog, please email me at CarlDinsmore@yahoo.com and tell me why you would like to post something on my blog. This is also a way for people in Cincinnati to get linked to social organizations that maybe they did not know existed. I will work hard on placing all sorts of information on the site, regarding Books, Medical updates, Causes that I deelpy care about, Gay vacation destinations, Gay Sports, and much, much more. Its also just a venue for you to share comments on postings, or share with me a cause or topic I could add to my site.
Last year was a very tough year for me, as I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, which is a form of depression mainly diagnosed in women, but more and more men are being diagnosed with this illness. So, look for information regarding borderline on the blog. Finally having a diagnosis regarding my depression was life saving. Coming through that crisis is what gave me the idea to create this blog.
But my number one goal for this site is the fact that it is time for unity in the gay community. Its time to STOP tearing each other down, but rather to build each other up. We are not all alike. We are different and these differences are what makes our world such a wonderful place to live. Please enjoy the site, and lets unite to make our world the best place it can be.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

What do you do?????????

It has been a year since I was let out of the hospital, and 2008 was one of, if not the best, years of my life as far as my depression goes, and I am thankful to still be here. I miss my parents who both passed away, dad 5 yrs ago, and mom 3 years ago. I think I am more happy in my own skin that I ever was in the past.
What is starting to bother me a bit now is that I am having some doubts regarding if I will ever get to a place in life where I am proud, stable in a life that brings me joy and a sense of making a difference. How do you find your way? How do you manage to always find the happy moments that makes it worth waking up each and every day? I am by no means suicidal anymore. I think what I do now is try to think my way through situations instead of the way I would react in the past, and that would be to just think I was in the worse place possible and it could not get better and life was just a total catastrophe, all the time, every day, no matter what. Such little things bring me joy today but it does not last long because I begin to rate where I am right now in my life.
I am so blessed to have the best big sister that God ever placed on the planet, and to have some friends who are really friends in every sense of the word. I have a wonderful best friend who had been put through the ringer with my depression and I am so thankful for his friendship. I understand that life is full of trials, and ups and downs but what I wish I could learn how to get to a place in my life where I am totally content with where I am in my life. What is missing and preventing me from getting to that place? It is a scary thing to think about but how do you not when you have this gut feeling that you should be doing so much more, making a difference.
If anyone has any thoughts, ideas, suggestions or just some insight I would love to hear from you. Please share, we can learn alot from each other if we just open ourselves to the input. Thanks!