Gay is not what we are, Gay is not who we are, Being Gay is just one simple part of us.: The new year 2009....things to come.

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Greetings Everyone!!!
I am starting this blog as a place for Gay men and women to come and read information about a variety of topics and issues. If you would like to be a guest author on my blog, please email me at CarlDinsmore@yahoo.com and tell me why you would like to post something on my blog. This is also a way for people in Cincinnati to get linked to social organizations that maybe they did not know existed. I will work hard on placing all sorts of information on the site, regarding Books, Medical updates, Causes that I deelpy care about, Gay vacation destinations, Gay Sports, and much, much more. Its also just a venue for you to share comments on postings, or share with me a cause or topic I could add to my site.
Last year was a very tough year for me, as I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, which is a form of depression mainly diagnosed in women, but more and more men are being diagnosed with this illness. So, look for information regarding borderline on the blog. Finally having a diagnosis regarding my depression was life saving. Coming through that crisis is what gave me the idea to create this blog.
But my number one goal for this site is the fact that it is time for unity in the gay community. Its time to STOP tearing each other down, but rather to build each other up. We are not all alike. We are different and these differences are what makes our world such a wonderful place to live. Please enjoy the site, and lets unite to make our world the best place it can be.

Friday, January 16, 2009

The new year 2009....things to come.

I hope everyone had a great new year!!!
I am going to attempt to work on the outside of me, since that all of last and a great deal of 2007 was spent working on the inside, the mental side of myself.

I have openly discussed my suicide attempt in May of 2007, and how I was hosptialized most of that year. 2008 was the first year in my life where I did not lose all my energy to the suction power of depression. I was actually happy, content, and confident all of last year. I managed to put on all the weight and more, that I lost while in the hosptial. Research I have done on the medicine I am on, Effexor and Seroquel, states that it can cause weight gain, as many anti-depressents do.

I am going to a meeting on Feb. 2 to see if I qualify for Gastric Bypass Surgery. Through the fight of my depresson over most of my life, I thought if I would lose weight the door to being loved by someone would open. I finally now know that is not the case. It has become such a clich'e over the past few years, but its true. If you can not love yourself, inside and out, nobody else will be able to love you. I have the hardest time losing weight due to the fact that I am a horrible eater. Dieting is such a task for me to stay on. I have a background with athletics and fitness but I still can not control my eating. I am no longer eating for comfort as I did over the years, but instead I am eating just horrible things for me. Years of athletics kept me at a stocky size and I continued to eat as much of anything I wanted. Now that competitive sports is slowing down for me, I no longer have that luxury of eating anything I wanted and whenever I wanted.

I know there is alot of pros and cons of this type of surgery, but it is something I have to do. I have to do what I feel is best for me, and my best chance to become healthy for the second part of my life. I will be 45 this July. WOW!!! 45!!! I can not believe that I am almost 50. I can remember so much of my early years, high school, college, and I just can not get over that I will be 45 this year. I do not feel 45 until I look in the mirror.

I will keep my progress posted on my blog during the approval stage of the surgery, and the happenings after if I am approved.

***** I AM SO HAPPY FOR EVERYONE WHO SURRIVED YESTERDAYS US AIRWAYS CRASH IN THE HUDSON RIVER IN NEW YORK CITY!!!1 THAT PILOT AND THE WHOLE CREW DESERVE THE LABEL OF HEROS IF THERE WAS EVER SUCH A THING!!!!!*********