Happy Saturday, November 8th, 2008

Hi people...sitting here on a lazy Saturday eating plain M&M's, and I need to be eating these as bad as we needed McCain and Palin in the White House. Reflection is a wonderful thing if you can learn and grow from it. For the first time in, wow, my whole life, I am comfortable in my own skin. I am realizing that looking like I look is not a bad thing. I was getting ready over the past few weeks for a national gay volleyball tournament that I host here in Cincinnati and we were having a fundraiser and this really nice guy bought MANY raffle tickets from me and at the end of the night as were leaving he stopped me and told me that he enjoyed our fundraiser and he thought I was very attractive. I thanked him, and began to get stuff together to leave. My roommate was like, " Are you that stupid? I was like what are you talking about? He said do you think that guy bought 75$ worth of raffle tickets just to win a prize? I was clueless that he was even flirting with me. This happened again at our volleyball tournament registration with friends telling me, " You do know that guy was hitting on you, don't you? " I really think that this reflects back on my own self esteem and how I do not think anyone would ever be hitting on me. Has anyone else experienced this same thing? I would be interested in hearing any other similar stories like mine. As I continue to grow and finally like myself more and more each day, I hope my ignorance to someone being interested in me becomes a thing of the past. Both of these guys were very attractive, so of course that made me even more oblivious to the fact that was right in front of me.